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14 June 2009 @ 12:28 am
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11 June 2009 @ 10:23 pm
when handling with issues involving emotions, matters of the heart, i have always been careful and deliberate.
it took me more than just a few lessons to learn.
these lessons, they may involve myself but most of the time, they are just observations.
i remember, back when i was secondary3, one of my good friends experienced a breakup.
she steadily walked to the toilet behind the canteen and the rest followed.
looking completely fine, she walked to the nearest cubicle, took some toilet paper and started crying.
i wondered to myself if she was just seeking attention.
how could someone who behaved normally a few minutes ago looked so vulnerable in just an instant?
after all, it was just a casual relationship.
why let the emotions run so deep? why allow someone to hurt you?
but i didnt know better then.
i always believe that the head should rule the heart.
the best choice can be made only when you are rationale.
i think i am rather protective of myself.
someone may be able to walk into my life but that person may not be able to walk into my heart.
however, sometimes, despite my greatest conscious efforts, emotions still take control.
that being said, it's high time i get my life back on the right track.
it took me more than just a few lessons to learn.
these lessons, they may involve myself but most of the time, they are just observations.
i remember, back when i was secondary3, one of my good friends experienced a breakup.
she steadily walked to the toilet behind the canteen and the rest followed.
looking completely fine, she walked to the nearest cubicle, took some toilet paper and started crying.
i wondered to myself if she was just seeking attention.
how could someone who behaved normally a few minutes ago looked so vulnerable in just an instant?
after all, it was just a casual relationship.
why let the emotions run so deep? why allow someone to hurt you?
but i didnt know better then.
i always believe that the head should rule the heart.
the best choice can be made only when you are rationale.
i think i am rather protective of myself.
someone may be able to walk into my life but that person may not be able to walk into my heart.
however, sometimes, despite my greatest conscious efforts, emotions still take control.
that being said, it's high time i get my life back on the right track.
11 June 2009 @ 02:50 am
i am flabbergasted at the number of mosquitoe bites i have on me now.
my left arm looks gross ):
but chicken pox will be much worse so i must remind myself to go for my 2nd immunity jab.
went to meet Alvin to pass him some stuff before he gets into the army tmr.
and that idiot was late for an hour.
sometimes, i suspect he's a girl in disguise. seriously.
which guy brings a toiletries bag out, epilate his legs and checks his hair once every 2 mins? HAHA.
sorry Alvinn, you know i am just kidding. ^^ you are really so cute.
then again, he's to go into the army tmr alr. there'll be a revolutional change soon.
let's pray, pray hard and extra hard that the pampered ACSI boy survives tekong. lol.
sorry Alvinn, you know i am just kidding again. afterall, you used to be from track and ncc right.
as i mentioned, i spent his last night of freedom w him.
we went back down to IJ aft dinner and had a picnic without food at teletubbies hill.
which explains the mozzie bites.
oh, the ugly bumps are almost gone alr! happy. mozzies are so much friendlier than sandflies.
still rmbr the terribly itchy punggol beach sandfly bites that refused to go away. grrr.
it's actually quite a miracle that we stayed there for a good few hours.
basically, we just nuah on the mat, talked a bit, looked at the sky and fed mosquitoes.
then it got quite late and alvin drove me home.
time really flies. and alvin's going army alr and then next will be hc.
haiyer, will miss you guys truckloads ):
cant wait to see you all botak though. hee. especially you and your reaction, Alvin.
LOL.
and this marks the end of my entry. tmr still got school. sian.
07 June 2009 @ 11:50 am
i ve totally lost my voice now. it's really upsetting because i have to cancel two of my tuitions and i am getting reallyyy broke ):
my 100 dollars... )):
sighh serve me right actually. i totally suck at taking care of myself.
since sunday, i had a sore throat and i ate as per normal.
chompx2, long johns, toasted sub, bbq ( catalyst of it all) and botak jones.
which ultimately resulted me in losing my voice.
then i still went to buy this ultra spicy mango salad during dinner last night.
haii, i am never going to recover...
i want to blog about et getting reallyy wasted and losing her valuables which include her hp, ic, keys, ezlink....
but i think she will kill me.
all thanks to her, i reached home at about 1pm and mum was reallyy unhappy about it ( cause i left house at midnight) so i came up w a story of et losing her stuff( which is half true). haha.
then liwei turned up at my house uninvited (!!!) that boy is atrocious i tell u.
we then went down to jia xiang mian for dinner. i think it's not bad though the portion is quite small.
i gotta prepare myself for church now. bye.
my 100 dollars... )):
sighh serve me right actually. i totally suck at taking care of myself.
since sunday, i had a sore throat and i ate as per normal.
chompx2, long johns, toasted sub, bbq ( catalyst of it all) and botak jones.
which ultimately resulted me in losing my voice.
then i still went to buy this ultra spicy mango salad during dinner last night.
haii, i am never going to recover...
i want to blog about et getting reallyy wasted and losing her valuables which include her hp, ic, keys, ezlink....
but i think she will kill me.
all thanks to her, i reached home at about 1pm and mum was reallyy unhappy about it ( cause i left house at midnight) so i came up w a story of et losing her stuff( which is half true). haha.
then liwei turned up at my house uninvited (!!!) that boy is atrocious i tell u.
we then went down to jia xiang mian for dinner. i think it's not bad though the portion is quite small.
i gotta prepare myself for church now. bye.
06 June 2009 @ 08:52 pm
you know, i dont really blog about what i do and stuff anymore.
been hanging out in the late nights and today was really ........
fun and at the same time, tragic.
lol.
28 May 2009 @ 12:41 pm
ME IS TIRED ):
ME IS WANT TO SLEEPS.
ME BRAIN IS NOT FUNCTIONING AS YOU CAN TELLS.
HOOS FAULT IS THIS, ALVIN?
not easy typing the above out. killed a lot of my brain cells alr. anw, i am in the library now.
must always max my school's facilities.
okay i got to go and do my work~
good bye all. <3
p.s. circle line has started running today alr. serangoon to bishan in 4 mins!
how very awesome.
ME IS WANT TO SLEEPS.
ME BRAIN IS NOT FUNCTIONING AS YOU CAN TELLS.
HOOS FAULT IS THIS, ALVIN?
not easy typing the above out. killed a lot of my brain cells alr. anw, i am in the library now.
must always max my school's facilities.
okay i got to go and do my work~
good bye all. <3
p.s. circle line has started running today alr. serangoon to bishan in 4 mins!
how very awesome.
27 May 2009 @ 01:32 am
sighh i just skipped lecture again. HAHA.
but i did revise my work. sooo, so far so good though work is still in progress. ^^
oh dear, i have so much so update about that i dont know where to start.
yesterday, or was it two days ago, i met up w maryanne lee! i have been seeing her face so much that i m getting sick of her alr.
hee.
nvm, i know she's in love w me one though she kept denying it.
we just met up in compass point to chit chat cause she was rotting at home. and she treated me to swensons.
awww, that girl is so sweet. no, i am too lovable. teeeheee.
then i sent her to her tuition place and got lost in sengkang. haii. so ashame of myself. haha.
i met up w my cuzs on sat and we hung out at bugis for quite awhile. after dinner, we went to TCC for more food but i dont really like it there.
NO OREO CHEESECAKE. HOW CAN?! and the choc mint drink was tad too bitter.
luckily it was a treat. :D
anw we talked for a bit before heading back homeee.
my choc moose. (:
anw, i gotta ciao alr or else i will be late meeting maggie! we are going to yoga n gym~
tata~ update again.
23 May 2009 @ 02:06 am
TGIF! :D
results were out yesterday and seriously thank God for his Grace. teehee.
i was so worried since the day i took my ebus paper and now, a burden is off my shoulders.
today, while dragging my feet to school, i bumped into yisheng! but... we didnt say hi.
i caught sight of him and before i could even turn around , he was 1km away alr. his long legs are scary.
so too bad. i just continued my ardous journey to school.
lecture was a waste of my time.
i might as well stay at home and sleep... zzzz. and tutorial was worse.
MY TUTORIAL TEACHER KEPT PICKING ON ME!!!
i think he called out my name at least 5 times.
you know, it's standard practise that once u asked a student a question, the same student shldnt be asked again
but noooooo, i was asked like a dozen times, different questions.
ermm on monday... i cannot rmbr what i did.
neither can i rmbr what i did on tues and same goes for wed and thurs. man, my memory is gross.
hc came on one of these days to drive me home from school. heeheehee.
but he's not there when i needed him the most. damn lousy 1.
i met up with dear maggie too! she's v nice to me as usual. she gave me a complimentary pass to Amore Fitness.
i will blog about it when i put the pass in good use one day but that girl is currently in melbourne w her bf.
*jealous*
as you can tell, i am real bored now. ):
let me continue my bangkok story...
( bkk part 2 )
i lost the momentum alr. bye.
results were out yesterday and seriously thank God for his Grace. teehee.
i was so worried since the day i took my ebus paper and now, a burden is off my shoulders.
today, while dragging my feet to school, i bumped into yisheng! but... we didnt say hi.
i caught sight of him and before i could even turn around , he was 1km away alr. his long legs are scary.
so too bad. i just continued my ardous journey to school.
lecture was a waste of my time.
i might as well stay at home and sleep... zzzz. and tutorial was worse.
MY TUTORIAL TEACHER KEPT PICKING ON ME!!!
i think he called out my name at least 5 times.
you know, it's standard practise that once u asked a student a question, the same student shldnt be asked again
but noooooo, i was asked like a dozen times, different questions.
ermm on monday... i cannot rmbr what i did.
neither can i rmbr what i did on tues and same goes for wed and thurs. man, my memory is gross.
hc came on one of these days to drive me home from school. heeheehee.
but he's not there when i needed him the most. damn lousy 1.
i met up with dear maggie too! she's v nice to me as usual. she gave me a complimentary pass to Amore Fitness.
i will blog about it when i put the pass in good use one day but that girl is currently in melbourne w her bf.
*jealous*
as you can tell, i am real bored now. ):
let me continue my bangkok story...
( bkk part 2 )
i lost the momentum alr. bye.
21 May 2009 @ 01:39 am
i have almost completed reading the book ' change of heart' by jodi picoult (after 2 weeks, yes i know my reading speed is beyond terrible). oh mother, i cant bear to continue reading anymore. though her plot is somewhat always the same, it always caught me unaware.
sighh. my heart is so heavy now.
anw, i still have several books unread before i go on a books buying spree again. stupid bernice, didnt inform about the mph sales.
nvm i shall wait for the borders sales where books are cleared at 4bucks each. it's really a bargain. but before that, i should start pestering shaun to return my unread books.
now, i am wondering why am i so free to have the time to read... oh yes, that explains why i took so long to finish 'change of heart'. (:
the numbers at the bottom right hand of my screen reads '1:46AM' and i have to wake up at 6am. great. i love my life.
talk about self control and a test to myself.
i dont wish to live but i dont want to die.
just why am i everything i wish i am not?
19 May 2009 @ 12:19 am
you know, i haven been in the best of moods lately. but there are always great people to lift my spirits up (:
i wont go into details because i am really lazy. i haven not even done w my bkk trip.
pictures and more entries soon! i promise! haha.
last night, Alvin, being very nice and patient, taught me how to drive an Auto car.
so i was driving his Nissan for quite a bit, it's quite cool. so much simpler than manual!
i wont go into details because i am really lazy. i haven not even done w my bkk trip.
pictures and more entries soon! i promise! haha.
last night, Alvin, being very nice and patient, taught me how to drive an Auto car.
so i was driving his Nissan for quite a bit, it's quite cool. so much simpler than manual!